We have been together for such a long time. I have found common ground with you. I have found comfort with you. I had you when no one else would listen, especially me. We have had our share of dramas, conflicts, arguments and truces. I thought we would be together forever……..but…….I have a confession to make;
I’ve met someone else. I never thought there would be anything else in my life. What’s their name you ask? Well, um, it’s kind of awkward and strange, but, um, you see, their name, well there name is Clay. That’s right – I’m leaving you for the stuff that comes from the earth. The rich, earthy, slightly grainy and oh so fundamental part of life. Grounding and comforting in a way that I never felt with you. Where you would rile me up, twist me around, create worry and trembling, well, you see, clay just loves me. It whispers to me that I can do it, whatever “it” is. Apply to that show, submit for that exhibition, call that gallery, grow bigger, brighter and better than I ever thought possible. Clay has released me from you – my beloved fear of failing. It has released me from the painful fear of rejection, from my self imposed chains of taking a chance, of taking a risk, of reaching for freedom.
Sweet fear, I have really enjoyed our time together. You know my most intimate insecurities and self doubts. Leaving you will be one of the hardest and yet bravest things I have ever done. Believe me, I have cried many times over this decision. I have reached and then withdrawn back into the comfort of your arms. But, if I am to grow into what I have only dreamt of, I have to go. I have to learn to live without you. I promise I won’t talk badly of you or put you down. You and I have had a beautifully tragic relationship and I will, in a very odd way, treasure it. I can do this because of what you have taught me. Hard won wisdom has been gained by knowing you and I thank you for all of the lessons. I don’t think we can be friends…….it just wouldn’t work out. I would start calling too much and you would start answering.
So, I am setting you free. I have to go now……..Clay is calling and I mustn’t be late.
I will miss you……..for awhile.